Social Deficinacy

The more I'm around people, the more I realize that I have no idea how to be with people. I have no understanding of how to intergrate into a group of people with no connections to me ... or .. .I don't know. I can manage to do it at work, and I suppose its not as bad as I would describe it, but still... I feel like I'm at a deficit when it comes to social situations. I dunno...

Mismashing the two previous entries...

I've had some of the discussions covered in the book with my mom before. Well, I talked. She ignored. But still... I want to be different. I want to talk with my kids. Discuss things. Make them think.

Vowage:

In class today Dr. Littman was talking about the importance of staying up with the readings, and I realized that I've not really read almost any of the readings for this semester, and really, not in any class yet. Which is a dangerous thing for me, since I'm just a little too intellectually snobbish, and would be really likely to just let it slide. So I need to make a personal vow:

I, Steven E. Dick, do vow to read the readings. Every one. And write a paper of at least half page on each reading, stating topic(s) covered, authors view(s) [if applicable], my view [if applicable] and a summary. From this day (1/24/08) onward.

Wow, I'm such a nerd.

The oddity of life

aka - On another subject all together...

I still wonder about my parents. They never followed up. They havn't tried even once to contact me, or anything. And I don't know how to feel about that.

On one hand, I could be glad that I don't have to work as hard to ignore them. And it does validate the Button Parental Doctrine ('They F***ing SUCK!").

On the other hand... Seriously!? How do you not even respond? What. The. Fuck. ?. Your only son tells you that you broke his heart and he doesn't want to be around you... and you don't even acknowledge it.... fight for him... apoligize... rationalize... argue... something...

On the third hand, do they see me (or more likely Button) as the evil one, doing the wrong? Yes, I'm sure that my mom does. And my dad has the backbone of a weekling amoeba... (ok, I can spell amoeba but not dilema?)

I dunno... I'm confused.

Oh wacky school...

Another Wednesday, another day sitting in class waiting to begin.

Entry in Buttony List style:

-I'm really feeling good. I don't know how or why my mood works, but I need to figure it out and get some control over my melancholy feelings. I don't know how exactly to do that though.


-So far, school is going well. I'm really in it this semester though. This is real this time, which isn't to say that last semester was not, or that my awesome grades were not, but this semester is more like what I was expecting. Hell, we even learned the first night of Pre-C. I was overjoyed.

-Work is still assbackwards, but oh well. I did sort of relate the idea of the prisoner delima (ok, so I really can't spell that currently..) to work.

-Button seems to be doing ok. I just worry that she will let herself get worn down. She needs to start worrying about that more. But I think she really likes her job, co-workers non-withstanding, which is really good.

Weekends of Joy

We get such little time together these days, Button and I. But when we do get time together, I'm glad we're able to spend together and enjoy each others company as much as we do. I always wonder if this is how other couples spend their time, how they live, and I realize I don't care. I love my life just as it is.

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Day one.. all over again

So, this is semester the second. Already off to a brighter and better future than Semester The First did.

Chem Lab - Got Nate as a lab partner. Our TA has the awesomest african accent. This should be a really fun class.

Chem 121a - The freaking lecture hall was packed. I mean, just packed. This also looks like a good class, although its going to be a total repackage of what I just got done with last semester, but whatevs.

Pols 112 - I am equal parts looking forward to and dreading this class. Parts of it are going to freaking drag for me as total over-recall, and some is going to be cool. I like my teacher, he seems really interested and dynamic.

So now I'm waiting for Math.

So far, so good. Only philosophy tomorrow to go for new classes after this.

New starts to the same old things...

I picked up my textbooks for the upcoming semester. And... I really hope I don't have to spend too much time back tracking in Chem and PreC. That would really blow.