Insomnia strikes, so I update...

I just didn't go to bed.  So I need to do some homework.  Anywhoo, my problem is this: I'm not for certain I want to go to pharmacy school.  Not because I think I couldn't hack it, or that I would be a bad pharmacist.  but will I really want to deal with the same bullshit I deal with now for 30 years?  Will I burn out?  Or will I just get bored with it?  Will I still enjoy it as much when I'm not learning something new at work?

I'm really tempted to just go for the chemistry degree.  I could go on to teach chemistry, and I think I'd be a good chemistry teacher.  And mybe I'd like doing research.  I won't know until I try it, I suppose.

Its amazing how my once certain future is unraveling and its really exciting and scary at the same time.

Personal goals

I suppose I'm not always good at these things, but I want to write them down somewhere:

- Be more me more often.  I'm always feeling this constant sense of ... unease around people and things.  I need to stop that.  Just be me.
- Heal.
- Be a better friend.  I don't have a lot of them, but the ones I have are really awesome, and I owe them to be better.
- Better a better companion to Davis.  He deserves better.
- Let the past go.  Its time to move on with my life already.